Belief is just a simple matter of choice. Each of us has to decide for ourselves what we choose to believe about.
And when it comes to God…it’s personal…it’s sacred…it can even define your religion or cast these days.
The problem arised when we attempt to declare that we can speak on God’s behalf? That we can say we know what God is thinking or how God will act?
The reality is that we don’t know with certainty when it comes to God. None of us have ever seen God.
That’s the whole point of faith.
Before reading further, please don’t think that I’m assuming that you have to believe as I do.
I respect every individual’s ability to choose for themselves what to believe, and I believe that the ability to chose is sacred to God as well. More on that another time, or else it’ll take a whole life to write or maybe some overly sacred person will kill me before even completing.
Sometimes we take upon ourselves this self-righteous concept that just because we believe in God, we must be right about what we think. As if we were the Almighty Creator of heaven and earth ourselves.
Can we be wrong in what we believe about God?
Tragically, history is filled with examples of times when people have used their belief in God for evil purposes. (People nowdays use Jihaad for the same) They were wrong to act like that. God is good. There is one thing that I hope we can all agree on — that God is good.
Our understanding of Deity isn’t always based on the most accurate information. We let what others say, and what we read and experience determine who we believe God is.
But at the end of the day, the total of all these thoughts are imperfect because we are imperfect. And that means that our understanding of God is sometimes flawed.
My belief in who God is, isn’t always right either, and I’m okay with that
I read once that we shouldn’t put God in a box. I thought that just because I was righteous enough to believe in God, that made me right.
Now I understand better that putting God in a box is whenever we limit them to only what our imperfect human minds can make up.
But it’s so much more than that.
It seems like nobody cares about God — they just care about what God can do for them.
Because they didn’t feel special before.
So they use God and religion to define their lives in a quest to inject meaning into it.
Well!
The romantic part of me wants to believe it. The romantic part of me who sometimes notices crazy coincidences do not want to let it go. There’s a part of me that believes God is still there — and that I’ve just put them away somewhere, waiting to see if this whole thing is even real.
Sort of like if someone had a major decision to make but they just needed more time.
I look at this world most days and I wonder where God is. Then I read fantastic stories from people here and it makes me believe again for a split-second.
This Is Not Like Me, I Know
Normally I write pieces that aren’t like this. I’m sorry if I offended you. I don’t mean to put down religion — I mean to put down myself, and maybe a few other religious fakers I’ve met — that’s all.
I feel bad for my own self. I just can’t bring myself to fully believe, even though part of me does.
I respect you all. I admire you as well. But most of all I love you. I have a lot to learn from you and from the stories that God has given us.
I hope one day I can open up my heart to them a little more.
God is everywhere and in everything that is good.
Thank you for reading this far. It must have been personal, so don’t kill me. Or even if you want to, please bring chicken momos and then stab me with a knife. I’ll meet that chicken again in heaven…not you!
Now if you are single and have a lot of time to waste in life, read my other blogs here. Also, you can go through some weird sketches here.
May the god be with everyone!
